21 June 2007

Mother's Day

Today I watched Stepmother, it is a film from 1998, with Susan Sarandon and Julia Roberts. A man who divorces his wife (Sarandon) and re-marries a younger woman (Roberts), has two children with (Sarandon). Sarandon's character learns she has cancer and undergoes treatment while despising her younger replacement. Sarandon and Roberts eventually become friends and so on. The movie made me realize I miss my mom, even though she is still here. I'm 19 going on 20 on Monday (June 25th) and I live with both of my parents. Yet I still miss my mom, and there are times I know I won't have with her even though she is still here. Even if I could spend every hour with her for the rest of her life it won't be enough, and selfishly enough I want her around for ever. I love my mom more than anything else, even more than the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with. I would do anything for my mom, I would probably even kill for her, because she means so much to me. There are times when she pisses me off, but I try to think of how short our lives are to be angry at one another. I know that one day my mom will leave my life forever, and I am scared of that day and the day after and the day after. I have no idea what I will do when she dies what I do know is that a lot of crying will be involved, but I don't know how I will go on. I've had nightmares where I imagine that she will never come home, and I woke up and cried. I don't cry much but for my mother I would cry, because she means so much to me and that is all that matters. I just hope that other people can realize the special relationship a person can have with their mother. That is all I have to say right now. Thanks for reading this and pass it on to your mother if you think they might enjoy it.


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